There is no Blerch these days, only Black Dog. Issues that I thought were settled have shown up to punch me in the stomach and send me spiraling. I have mostly felt like sleeping, eating crap, and playing games on my phone.
Let's pull out the explanations/excuses:
- The weather has been SO COLD. Which doesn't account for those people I know who run in the snow, and the fact that the weather has been changing.
- I've had some changes in my job--good ones, mind you, but some definite challenges.
- Insomnia is now new and improved with hot flashes and anxiety dreams.
- My training schedule is difficult to keep up, especially on the weekends. I have yet to finish a week as written.
I just don't feel like running. Or doing much of anything.
|My Belladonna. She is a good girl.|
I'm hoping this is a season. It is getting warmer. And I have a race next week that I will be doing with some friends. I still haven't committed to the half in April, but I've at least got a fun 5K scheduled.
I've been thinking about starting a mood afghan as a way of seeing if there are patterns, as well as channel some of this into something creative.
But I'm not going to stop.
Please don't let me stop.