Sunday, February 23, 2014

When the Black Dog Comes

This is another one of those posts that I keep trying to write ...

There is no Blerch these days, only Black Dog. Issues that I thought were settled have shown up to punch me in the stomach and send me spiraling. I have mostly felt like sleeping, eating crap, and playing games on my phone.

 Let's pull out the explanations/excuses:
  • The weather has been SO COLD. Which doesn't account for those people I know who run in the snow, and the fact that the weather has been changing.
  • I've had some changes in my job--good ones, mind you, but some definite challenges.
  • Insomnia is now new and improved with hot flashes and anxiety dreams.
  • My training schedule is difficult to keep up, especially on the weekends. I have yet to finish a week as written.
I am, however, still running at least three to four times a week. I've been trying to take a calcium-magnesium vitamin, as suggested by my doctor. I'm seeing a little bit of improvement in my "easy pace." But my enthusiasm is waning.

I just don't feel like running. Or doing much of anything.

I just
and do

My Belladonna. She is a good girl.
I know there are ways to break myself out of it. Race dates help (although I'm trying to cut back for the sake of our budget). So do running groups (which means getting the energy to push back social anxiety).

I'm hoping this is a season. It is getting warmer. And I have a race next week that I will be doing with some friends. I still haven't committed to the half in April, but I've at least got a fun 5K scheduled.

I've been thinking about starting a mood afghan as a way of seeing if there are patterns, as well as channel some of this into something creative.

But I'm not going to stop.

Please don't let me stop.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Vlog Up! Choosing Your Birthday Suit

Rainy, cold, icky morning here. I opted to go to the Y to use the dreadmill, which became a horror in itself with figuring out the technology (and realizing too late that it didn't allow for sessions over an hour).

But I finished another vlog! In this episode, I answer a question that was posed on what to wear for a race on your birthday.

I'm also starting a challenge--post pictures of yourself on my Facebook page or on Instagram with #birthdaysuit and tag me - @chunkywonderwoman

By the way, I'm also inviting you to follow me on Instagram. You will, however, have to put up with many crafting/doglie/girlie pics as well as some running stuff.